goodbye gravity, welcome change.

wow. year eleven is fucking over. and it's about fucking time.
last exam today, i've failed but i don't care.
it's over... well, for now.
i'm so sick of stressing over stupid assignments and friggin exams.
i was pretty much on the verge of exploding.
one more year of hell and i'm completely over it.
i cannot wait.

so, 2009, you've been completely shit.
i've made so many mistakes this year, so much i can't fix.
i've given up on so much in my life, i wish i was more optimisitic.
i barely have friends anymore.
i don't seem to care about people anymore and people don't care about me anymore.
or at least don't have time in their busy busy schedules to fit me in.
i guess that's life though.
people come and go, all you can really do is rely on yourself.
but i guess, if you don't depend on people you have a less likely chance of getting hurt.
and i'm sick of getting hurt.

although, over these past few weeks, i seem to start picking up the pieces of my life that i still care about up and fixing them.
i miss my old friendships and how easily happy i was.
i'm talking to people i haven't spoken to in months.
i never thought things could go back to the way they used to, but i'm trying and it's getting there.
it's strange how quickly and how close i can get with people.
i don't talk feelings with anyone but for some reason, with him, i can.
i'm glad i have someone at school who i still care about.
and it's funny how little time it takes for you to stop caring about the ones that once meant the world to you.
it's okay, i'm over it. you don't have to worry about me anymore.
please, go on with your precious lives. i don't mind.

thankyou, to the like threee friends i do have. try not to screw me over. that'd be really nice.

hello 2010, please be majestic.
i'm begging you.