i hate hartley.

seems like forever, like forever...
since i tore myself apart.
and left my friends in the wake
of countless tears, and fading life;
when i couldn't seem to grasp the life i lead and the lives i touch.

it's one year on now.
one year on, one year on...
still i struggle with the same demons.

i shed as i laid there lost in my head.
lost in this god damn hospital bed.
i'm not the same girl,
and i don't dare try.
try to uncover all the darkness i hide.

it's like my demons are my lovers...
but i've got friends by my side,
i've got hope in my eyes,
and dreams to aspire to and the whole wide world to watch below.

and death won't be my lover,
i've got so much left to give.
i'll take my life with subtle steps,
instead of not wanting all that is left.

instead of trying to take my own life...
it's one year on and i am stronger.
i want to live much longer,
not grow old and bitter and not jaded and hate what life gave me.

and let the fear wash away,
let the demons blunt their claws on a life that's full of mistakes,
but always searching for much more.

i won't die defeated.
cause i've got friends by my side,
i've got hope in my eyes,
and dreams to aspire to and the whole wide world to watch below.

and death won't be my lover,
i've got so much left to give.
and take my life with subtle steps,
instead of not wanting all that is left.

youngbloods.

Procrastination: If it were an occupation, fuck, i'd be damn good at it!
Instead of doing the very many things i'm supposed to be doing, i spend my time painting nail designs.
I've failed my exams and behind by at least two assignments in every single subject I do.
I should be worried or upset about this, but I find myself not giving a damn.
Instead, i've never been more content with my life and the people in it.
I'll say, its been a good month.
June, you have treated me well. Thankyou :)

happiness.

is being with your friends, being creepy and stalking your crush. :)

sometimes, life r00lz.

just breathe.

stressedstressedstressed.

i wish i cared more about what the shit that happens around me.
i wish i could fix everything.
i wish for a million other wishes and for all of them to come true.

brontebrontebronte, she is keeping me sane. bestfraannnnn (L)

heartless at best.

oh my god. i hate my life.

memories that fade like photographs.

looking through old photos of the past five years.
i miss old jokes, friends and good times.

tired and uninspired.

i must stop making people my priority,
when i am only their option.

i must stop making people my priority,
when i am only their option.

i must stop making people my priority,
when i am only their option.

i must stop making people my priority,
when i am only their option.

i must stop making people my priority,
when i am only their option.

i must stop making people my priority,
when i am only their option.

i must stop making people my priority,
when i am only their option.

i must stop making people my priority,
when i am only their option.

i must stop making people my priority,
when i am only their option.

i must stop making people my priority,
when i am only their option.

i must stop making people my priority,
when i am only their option.